A Tanzanian actress recently threw the social media space into a spin after revealing that she will soon kick the bucket if her troubled life does not improve.
Through a chilling Facebook post, Wastara wrote how she has been leading a dejected life since her husband – Sajuki Juma – gave up his ghost over a half a decade ago.
Before passing on, her ailing husband told her that they should use the remaining time to bring joy to their hearts, that she should not stop him from going wherever he wants.
Now, Wastara shared with her fans her current state of mind, but it is the details in the post that sent chills down her fans’ spines. She said she also wishes to do what her heart pleases with the few days she has on earth.
Below is the post:
“Another person living in an environment similar to mine would find it really hard to even comb his or her hair. When my husband was ailing and suffering, he told me: ‘My wife, I am feeling weak. Nonetheless, I don’t like to see you dirty and kindly don’t bar me from going anywhere I’d want to because I will die anytime soon. Let’s use the remaining time to do whatever our hearts desire.’
Currently, I am feeling the same way he felt before dying. I am feeling my death is soon approaching. I do whatever my heart pleases. When it tells me to go to the beach, I would go, when it tells me to go to the disco, I would go, when it tells me to go to and pray in the mosque overnight, I would go. I don’t want to be predictable; neither do I want people to know that I am ailing.
I fake happiness, even if it is not there. To all those who are finding it hard to understand me and end up insulting me, kindly let me be. I don’t do anything to hurt or cause disgust to anyone. I need peace. My heart bleeds every day. I wish to do anything to have peace, but nothing is falling in place. There’s nothing as bad as losing hope and happiness in life. It makes you lead an isolated life.
I have said all these for you to understand the person that I am. Whenever you say negative things about me, you come across as someone who is so eager to send me to my grave. My leaders, friends, relatives, fellow artists and fans kindly pray for me to regain happiness in 2017. Pray that my heart finds peace, pray that all my pains end, pray that I get healed. May 2017 bring happiness to me.”